A Moments Thought in Quotes

"Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never. "
Charles Caleb Colton

“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.”
― Anaïs Nin

"A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life..."

 ― Elizabeth Gilbert

 Okay, so I have to tweak one my rules. I know I mention drinking as an important step, but it's a double edge sword. Ladies when drinking make sure you have responsible supervision. These are vulnerable moments and your thinking is impaired. Bad decisions all of sudden, look bright and promising. 

Well, no, a bad decision will remain a bad decision once you wake up in the morning. This past weekend was a mixture of bad decisions and instinctual ones. It was also an emotional one, but what's new? 

I find myself walking in circles on a very worn down path. I am fighting a losing battle, and yet I can't seem to throw in the towel. I am not able to hold on to self preservation, but throw it away at the chance to just talk. I have never been more incapable of protecting myself from a person before. Not sure what he did, but to say he got under my skin isn't even the tip of the iceberg. 

I need to quit you and I will. I have to. I'm trying a new approach. I'm going to approach this as you would, logically and detached. Let's focus on thinking logically, instead of emotionally. Detachment I hope comes hand in hand with logic. Not sure how well this experiment will go, but I'm sure I'll be writing about it.

We can't be that girl that just doesn't get it. You know who I'm talking about. The girl that continues to call, text and remains available even when it is so undeserving. That girl who wishes him luck on finals, makes sure the orchids are being watered, calls on holidays, even though he hasn't called. Ladies, we cannot allow ourselves to be that girl who will settle for the status quo just to have some part of him still in your life.

So, I will try this approach and see how far it takes me. I've got nothing left to lose.