So, it seems I've been stuck in neutral for the last 4 years of my life.
Moving, moving and moving along.
Shuffling of feet, only looking forward,
missing all the details and small moments, always focusing on the big picture. The universe never fails to send me signs, people and situations that should illuminate my path. I'm too scared to ever move forward.
Fear.
Such an ugly word. Such a short word. Yet it suffocates me and dictates my decisions. I have forgotten myself and have let my goals fall to the side as I march on, monotonously. Robot-like. Somewhere along the line I have stopped participating and just am.
There are moments and glimmers, when I'm driving to work and the sun is burning strong, the sky is that painful blue and all is quiet, and I am content. In that second, the Universe seems to work seamlessly, like a well oiled machine and I'm fortunate enough to be a witness.
Time.
Another short word, yet it weighs on all of us like anvil. We are all fighting against time, trying to beat time and trying to understand it. Time, like fear, looms over my head each time my eyes flutter open with each new day. Its also futile to fight time, but we do it anyway. Each and every one of us.
Well, it is Time to face my fears and finally take a step in the right direction, my direction.
