The Beginning of an End.

Yesterday was a day filled with special moments that you carry in your heart forever. It began with a nice long visit with my home girl. It had been far too long since my last visit. As usual, it was about 2 hours filled with chatter and catching up. Though I still walk away feeling a bit emotionally drained, it's nothing unbearable.

That visit was followed up by an impromptu BBQ of sorts at my uncle's house. Such an ordinary visit ended up as quite a magical night sitting around a fire in Miami. We roasted marshmallows and made S'mores. We were all bundled up sitting close together getting warm by the fire. It's one of those nights that I know I will later look back on and smile. We reminisced about the past and it was the first time I learned that my uncle remembers the small moments in my life. 

I also realized that I'm nowhere close to being ready for a friendship. Yes, I know, this has been obvious to everyone - but me. I'm okay with that. I have a great belief in myself and in my ability to set aside feelings for a greater cause. If it meant that we could be friends, then I was going to figure it out - somehow. Who am I kidding? At least it's not such a sharp pain or sense of loss. Now, it's more of a dull nagging hurt; a phantom limb of sorts. It's always beneath the surface, but it's not boiling over.

Sigh.

If I had an option on how to end my year, last night would be it.

Namaste.