There is nothing like finding out a situation could have been resolved a while ago, but wasn't because you were too afraid to deal with it. Aye ya ya. I just learned that I could have been attending school probably since last year if I had only just called.
Fear has dictated too many decisions these last few years and now I'm paying for that. I cannot help but feel disappointed in myself for dropping the ball.
Well, I'm done. I'm done with being afraid of what may or may not happen. I'm done with pretending that my whole life isn't moving forward at a hellish speed and I'm missing out.
So what, if I don't know what I'm going to do once I graduate?
So what, if I'm probably going to be the oldest student in the class?
So what, if I have lost a few brain cells due to my inactivity?
The day my foot touches FIU campus, I will probably cry a little. The day I can sit behind a desk with notebook open and pen in hand, I'll know that I won this battle.
So, yea it may take another year to finally be able to go back to school.
So, yea I may be 30 years old when I finally receive my BA.
So, yea.
I am willing to work 2 jobs to make extra income. I am willing to sacrifice and budget in order to get to that finish line.
I am starting to put all of my ducks in a row and I'll be damned if I let anything get in my way. It has taken me far too long to get to this point and it's full steam ahead.
There isn't time to linger in the past.
There isn't time to linger on lost love.
There isn't time to linger on what ifs.
The Universe has a plan for me and I've ignored the signs for so long that I lost my way. I thought Mike was my new path, but I was wrong. He wasn't my path, but my guide that has led me back to where I need to be. I don't think I could have reached this point without having had our lives entwined.
I will not let all of what I've been through, where I have been, be for naught.
Yea, I did just use "naught" in a sentence.
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