During this whole ordeal that I have been going through the thought currently occurred to me, that am I hurt over the love lost or the idea that I had.
Initially the hurt was very real, almost too real. Now though, I wonder what it is that I'm hurting over. I love the man, but am I really still that IN love with him? Also, perhaps, I'm more hurt because of the what could have been or what was supposed to be.
I still miss having direct contact with him and I miss just being with him. I just don't know how deep the hurt goes anymore.
It's awful to have your hopes dashed away, but that's all they were. It's hard to remain down about a what should have...
Okay, time to feed the worm in my stomach.
Namaste.
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