It's been almost a month now, and my will power is beginning to waver. It blows my mind how quickly 3 years can be over. I sometimes forget I was even in a relationship and that surprises me. It also makes me sad at times.
Forgetting is a great thing, it's the remembering that kills you. Memories, emotions, the hurt, it all floods your mind right when you think it's done. Now it's just this feeling of , "how can you?" I do not understand how someone can just literally walk away from something that was supposedly important. How can you walk away from such a big part of your life?
Eh, I do not think I will ever get those questions answered. Or the answers will never suffice. I am at the point in all of this that I want nothing to do with him. I cannot imagine being friends now or in the near future or any future at all. As it stands he obviously wants no part in my life nor mine in his. This was a relationship where everything came easy to him. I put in most of the work and let him slide by. I was the constant, but I am done with that now.
He will never be the one to call or to write or text. I am done with trying.
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