???

What does it all mean?

Has all my hard work been for naught?

Have I been fooling myself all along?

How was I supposed to react?

I recognize that he has cast a spell on me - useless now.

I thought I was moving forward slowly, but surely.

In just 30 minutes all of my efforts seemed silly and empty.

I don't want to be that woman that lives the rest of her life pining over lost love.

How did it get to this? How did he get under my skin and has managed to remain there?

I feel embarrassed and ashamed. He has been successful in moving on - obviously.
I am painfully aware that the love has long been gone and I'm left to choke on this poisonous spell.

When will I break free of this?

namaste.