until we sail away into the sunset with a drink in each hand.
These past few days have been eye opening and filled with life lessons.
I came face to face with the undeniable truth that I am still very much in love.
I also came face to face with various solutions or paths to be taken.
It is time I stop living my life according to the break-up.
It is time I stop marking each event according to how long it has been since I've spoken to him.
My life has remained entangled with his even if he's an unwilling participant. Watching someone move on is a hard pill to swallow, but that is all you will ever be doing - watching. I must unravel myself from the sticky web I have created.
There is an opportunity at hand, an opportunity for my new chapter to be cleansed of him. It is unfortunate that I've never been good at letting go. I'm a fighter. The more impossible the fight, the more veracious I am. This can go wrong in so many instances - this definitely being one of them.
I have also realized that I have only so many spoons and I need to stop using them on this.
So. When I wake up in the morning, it's not going to be about surviving another day without engaging with him. Instead it will be about surviving the day - period. It is time I begin making my peace with this and myself.
Tip: Stop analyzing ways to letting go or questioning your own motives. Just take each day as they come, according to you.
namaste.
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