Time has unavoidably moved forward. The void grows deeper. There are times when I feel like I cannot do it and feel an overwhelming sadness. I do not know what else to do with myself. There are moments of desperation and dry heaving. I've never been more hurt and broken. I am tired, so tired of feeling like this.

I want to get off this roller coaster. I cannot handle the good days and the bad days. I need consistency in my life right now. It hurts to not talk and it hurts when we do.

I'm tired of writing about this.

I am done.